Monday, 12 March 2012
Fight the addiction.
There's this place in me where your fingerprints still rest, your kisses still linger, and your whispers softly echo. It's the place where a part of you will forever be a part of me.
People think they know you. They think they know you're handling a situation. But the truth is, no one knows. No one knows what happens after you leave them, when you're lying in bed or sitting over your breakfeast alone and all you want to do is cry or scream. They don't know whats going on inside your head- the mind -numbing cocktail of anger and sadness and guilt. This isn't their fault. They just don't know. And so they pretend and they say you're doing great when you're really not. And this makes everyone feel better. Everybody but you.
I know you guys wil pass me in life. You and all of my friends will go on and get married and have kids and a good job and I'll just be stuck in December 2011. It was taken away from me. Everything. The ghost of a man I once knew. Oh how he haunts me. At every turn, every corner. Looking back and looking forward.
Are you looking for answers to questions under the stars? If along the way you are grown weary you can rest with me until a brighter day and you're OK.
I am no superman. I have no answers for you. I am no hero, oh that's for sure. But I do know one thing. Where you are is where I belong. I do know where you go is where I want to be.
What If I can't be all that you need me to be. We've got a good thing going, we have some promises to keep. But my addiction it can be such a detriment. Please believe in this my dear, i am more then penitent. What if everything's just the way that it will be. Could it be that I am meant to cause you all of this greif. My war ships are lying off the coast of your delicate heart. And my aim is steady and true as it's been right from the start.
Memories are killing. So you must not think of certain things, of those that are dear to you, or rather you must think of them, for if you don't there is the danger of finding them, in your mind, little by little.
I wish you'd hold me when I turn my back. The less I give the more I get back. Oh your hands can heal, your hands can bruise. I don't have a choice but I'd still choose you.
When she was just a girl she expected the world but it flew away from her reach and the bullets catch in her teeth Life goes on, it gets so heavy. The wheel breaks the butterfly every tear a waterfall in the night the stormy night she'll close her eyes in the night the stormy night away she'd fly and dreams of paradise.
Baby why'd you leave me Why'd you have to go? I was counting on forever, now I'll never know. I can't even breathe. It's like I'm looking from a distance. Standing in the background. Everybody's saying, he's not coming home now. This can't be happening to me. This is just a dream.
The preacher man said let us bow our heads and pray Lord please lift his soul, and heal this hurt. Then the congregation all stood up and sang The saddest song that she ever heard.
I wanna sleep with you forever and I wanna die in your arms in a cbin by a meadow where the wild bees swarm.
To what day till I see sunrays upon your face I dream of you the way you look the beating of love in your heart your words are like the flowing of a spring, knowing thy love waits for me until eternity's end. Is this poetry or Is this loves sickness engulfing my every being take the heart from you and the blood ceases from me. I see waht you hear. Laying their clutching hands so tight I can feel your heart telling me it will be alright ascension to heaven where this love can not only walk but it runs through endless fields of joy where love neither ends nor begins but flows everlasting this was thy dream this daybreak and will be my prayer that I will rest sleepless till the sun rises on that day and butterflies sing with us as we write love symphony the pages of life fill the story of our love in a time long ago where fairy tales come true and you and I my love will live happily ever after. I love you.
We were high we were low but I promise I will never let you go said I got your back boy.