A Native American grandfather was talking to his grandson about how he felt. He said, " I feel as If I have two wolves fighting in my heart; one wolf is the vengeful,angry,violent one. The other wolf is the loving, compassionate one." the grandson asked him,"Which wolf will win the fight in your heart?" The grandfather anwsered, "The one I feed."

Good manners are an admission that everybody is so tender that they have to be handled with gloves. Now, human respect- you don't call a man a coward or a liar lightly, but if you spend your life sparing people's feelings and feeding their vanity, you get so you can't distinguish what should be respected in them.

Perhaps they are not stars , but rather openings in Heaven where the love of our lost ones pours through and shines down upon us to lets us know they are happy

"I have lived with you and loved you, and now you are gone. Gone where I cannot follow, until I have finished all of my days."- Victoria Hanley

A brief candle; both ends burning. An endless mile; a bus wheel turning. A friend to share the lonesome times. A handshake and a sip of wine. So say it loud and let it ring. We are all a part of everything. The future, present and past. Fly on bird To Heaven...you're free at last.

I hope all is well in Heaven cause it's all shot to hell down here. I hope that I find you in Heaven cause I'm so lost without you down here, you won't be comming back and i didn't get to say goodbye I really wish... I got to say goodbye.

I thought that I would miss you so, and never find my way. And then I heard the angel say, " They're with you every day." "The sun, the wind, the moon, the stars, will forever be around, reminding you of the love you shared, and the peace they've finally found."

I have buried you every place I've been, you keep ending up in my shaking hands.  - atleastwerestillalive

You're a memory from before; please don't let me forget you. You're the wolves at my door. In that moment I realized that something I thought would always be there will die. Like everything else.

God saw you were getting tired and a cure was not meant to be so he put his arms around you and whispered come with me with tearful eyes we watched you as we saw you pass away although we love you deeply we could not make you stay your golden heart stopped beating hard working hands at rest God broke our hearts to prove to us he only takes the best.

Solitude I'm doing fine I dance alone with my head held high oh solitude it's all sublime to swing along the choice is mine to wait while others play delay my love, I'll wait

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdon to know the difference.

"And there will come a time, you'll see, with no more tears. And love will not break your heart, but dismiss your fears. Get over your hill and see what you find there, with grace in your heart and flowers in your hair"- mumford & sons

If you are in harmony with yourself you may meet a lion without fear because he respects with self-confidence.

There's a time when a man needs to fight, and a time when he needs to accept that his destiny is lost.. the ship has sailed and only a fool would continue. Truth is ... I've always been a fool.

One good thing about total, complete grief is that it humbles a person to such an extent that there is resistance to the voice of that loving, unleashed power that never leaves us.

Please believe that things are good with me and If they're not, they will be soon enough.

And I scratch these words into a black notebook I wrote your name on top I knew you'd never look I tried my best to fight the atmosphere To think the happy thoughts that leave the phone lines clear I see arizona stars from here but Peter Pan is miles away

"He has never liked December. Ever since he had made his first treck through the seemingly endless snow at his grandmother's house so many years ago and heard the wind howling and saw the bare, empty trees. it made him cry, without a reason, and a little of that  sadness returned each year to him. It always went away with the spring, but it was a little different tonight. There was a feeling of winter coming to last a million years. There would be no spring."

"If there is no one beside you when your soul embarks, then I will follow you into the dark."

"You are  indescribably, my dear. You are like the stars and moon and sun and Jupiter and Mars all merged into one. you are difficult and hard to figure out, like quantum science. But, you.. you are beautiful in every way. it is as if you were made to be beautiful and exquisite like a diamond in the rough and like art and adventure and memories and journeys. You are unpredictable, just like a meteor waiting to strike the earth. You are the universe."

"Be soft. Do not let the world make you hard. Do not let the pain make you hate. Do not let all the bitterness steal your sweetness. Take pride- even though the rest of the earth may disagree- that you still believe this world to be a breathtaking and beautiful place."

If only I had an enemy bigger than my apathy. I would have won. But I gave you all. But you rip it from your hands and you swear it's all gone. And you rip out all I have just to say that you've won. Well now you won.

I was scared to call your mother for news that you weren't getting better. Well my,what the hell am I supposed to do?And I ran off and ran to something I swore was everything but beautiful I only say that word for you.

For all you single ladies who are in such a hurry to get married, here's a quick biblical advice: Ruth patiently waited for her mate Boaz. While waiting for YOUR boaz, don't settle for ANY of his realtives: Brokeaz, Poaz, Lyinaz, Cheatinaz, Dumbaz, Cheapaz, Lockedupaz, Goodfornothingaz, Lazyaz or Marriedaz and exspecially his thid couzin Beatinyoaz. Please,wait on your Boaz & make sure he respect Youaz.

I'm messed up. I don't know how to fill the moments that we used to spend together, I don't know who to turn to when something important happened. It's funny how losing one person can affect you so much.

I have died everyday waiting for you darling don't be afraid i have loved you for a thousand years I love you for a thousand years more and all along I believed I would find you. - christina perry

We had the right love at the wrong time. Guess I always knew inside I wouldn't have you for a long time.

To me it's all about trust and loyalty. I need someone I can trust to be myself with. Someone who won't spill my secrets to another person, even if it's someone who they trust and are close to. I need someone who is loyal. I've had too many people just leave from my life, walk out, just like that. Too many who have replaced me. I need someone who won't simply ditch me for someone else because they're funner, or more open, or belong to another crowd. I need someone I can count on. Because I'd be willing to do all that for someone, and so much more.

"Here I am, sorely transmogrified, as you see, but there's something of me left at the bottom of him still." - Atleastwerestillalive. Ryan, my guardian angel, I thank you for being In my life, you were taken away too soon. You are young forever and you still have my heart buried with you. I love you.*

Who knows him as well as I do? Who knows his laugh, his smile, the way he moves & throws his glances? Who knows but I the scent of his clothes, the way he drives, the things he does? The curl of his hair at the back of his neck, the words he uses, his sense of humor. Each of these things I know & cherish as if they were my own. Who else but I could love his taste in shoes, his gestures, his gently curved features.. His smooth skin when he shaves, & his stubble when he doesn`t? Who knows him as well as I do? & who could love him as I do?

And I'll be here by the ocean just waiting for proof that there's sunsets and silhouette dreams.  All my sand castles fall like the ashes of cigarettes and every waves drags me to sea. I could stand here for hours, just to ask God the question, "Is everyone here make-believe?" With a tear in his voice, he said, "Son, that's the question." Does this deafening silence mean nothing to no one but me?

"I can stop anytime i want to."
famous last words that come back to haunt you.

the days will always be brighter beause he existed.
the nights will always be darker because he's gone.
and no matter what anybody says about grief, and
about time healing all wounds, the truth is, there are
certain sorrows that never fade away until the heart
stops beating and the last breath is taken.

I never knew life could be like that. he was
the one thing i followed through with in my
life. the one things i didn't give up on.
I was good at loving him.

 I think about you when you're not here.
     I do still think about the times we shared.
   Love the carnival is comming around again this year.*

favorite*

He's the ink under my skin sometimes I can't tell where I am Where I leave off and he begins.

It feels like Im alone on an Island. I sit on the beach and sink my toes in the sand as I watch a storm form miles and miles out at sea. I think what will this storm do to me. As the inhabitants flee, I place my head on my knee. As I sit and wait whats comming to thee. Its so foggy I can barely breathe. I cant see the storm anymore for I know its upon me. Thunderous hate and lightening strikes greed, I wish you were with me. Yet rays of light seeps threw dark mysterious fright, light flatters my face, gives me hope in fears place. i turn and climb the mountain high, as I picture your beautiful face. Im on top of the world, and what a beautiful veiw, i sit on a log as i watch the storm brew. Yet I have ever searching eyes over the vast ocean blue. Where is my sailor, my savior, my true? - Dedicated to RDH PERSONAL poetry, Please do not take

I spray cologne on your pillow and fall asleep on it pretending its you... * dedicated to Rdh

You could be my compass, teach me how to read these broken lines. Hold me like a lover, we'll find a way to run tonight. Tell me when it's over, promise that you'll always keep me in mind. Burning like a soldier, I'll find my way to you and save the day.

After all how many ways can one heart be mangled and still be expected to keep beating? I'd lived through a lot, but it didn't make me feel strong. Instead, I felt horribly fragile, like one word could shatter me.

" A girl was walking home from school, when she stopped at the alley way she usually took to get home because for some reason she had a bad feeling about it. A man stood in the alley way, staring her down. She was scared, but this was her only way home. But she was all alone. The girl thought to herself ' God is with me. I have faith in him, he'll protect me and keep me safe.' As she walked through the alley way, the man just stared at her. She then continued on her way and got home safe. Later on she found out that the man had kidnapped and raped the girl who walked through the alley only 15 minutes after her. The police brought the girl to identify the man who had stared at her as she walked through the alley. She was brave and asked him,"Why was it that when I walked by you, you didn't rape me? He said, "How could I? You had 2 strong men on either side of you."

God will never abandon you.

One day, the memory of your face will fade into a technicolor swirl, but your voice will still haunt the inside of my car, and those three words- no matter whispered,said or shouted- will still bring me to my knees every single time - Nicholas Lee

And it said, I'll wait for you at Heaven's gate. Oh I don't care how long it takes. And I'll tell Saint Pete I can't come in without my love and my best friend. Oh, this ain't nothing new, sweetheart, I'll wait for you."

And I remember the skin of your fingers, the spot three quarters up I'd always touch when i was out of things to say. You held my hand, but you were too afraid to speak and I could never understand. I remember when you leaned in quick to kiss me, and I swear, that not a single force on earth could stop the trembling of my hand.And I remember how you smiled through the smoke In a crowded little coffehouse and laughed at all my jokes. And I remember the way that you dressed and, How we wasted all the best of us in alcohol and sweat. And I remember when I knew that you'd be leaving, how I barely kept up breathing. - La dispute

And I will stand over the grave in which you lay and apologize for not keeping you safe.

You and I will always be unfinished buisness.

Baby, I still can't believe your gone. I know your waiting for me, but It still feels so unrealistic. It makes me  sick just thinking about it.  I really miss you. You were my bestfriend and the love of my life, my soulmate, my fiance. Randomly I'd remember waking up in the apartment because Mya jumped up and was barking so loud I must have called out your name four times and shook you before you woke up and yelled at Mya. You were such a kind soul and so protective.I remember what It was like to be near you and hug you. I loved your laugh! It was the best music I have ever heard. It was a beautiful sound. The little things we take for granted, like breathing. Ryan, I miss you breathing...